Why we shouldn't wait for the rainbow to thank God for the rain:
As you all know, the last thing my mission has been is cake and ice cream and sunny days. (Actually everyday is blisteringly sunny....but you get the picture). I have had everything that could possibly go wrong, go wrong. It has seemed that every single side that I turn I'm getting metaphorically...and even a little literally beat up by the adversary. From parasites to irritable bowel syndrome to kidney cysts to assaults to mission wide gossip..... anything that could go wrong, has.
And yet I can tell you that every single day of it, I have been grateful for. I have loved each day of my mission. Some days a little more than others, but even still, I have loved each day. I can even say that I love the hard days more than I love the easy days. Because on the hard days I am tested, and I come face to face with who I am, and am able to overcome an obstacle and by the end of the day, improve, and become a little more who it is Heavenly Father wants me to be.
There have been a few times during the last few months that I have asked...why on earth is this so hard? I looked at other missionaries and compared myself. Only to the point of asking...why are they sliding by? They don't have to fight with their health to stay here. They dont have things going wrong for them. Why is the Lord allowing me to have such a hard time? I say allowing...because what I have learned is that BEFORE something difficult takes place in our lives, the Lord ALWAYS prepares a way for us to conquer that trial. 1 nephi 3:7. More than just that.... it means that he KNOWS we are ready for that trail. For that opportunity to grow. And it IS indeed an opportunity. It is a privelege to pass through difficulties. It is only through the difficulties that we can grow. We don't change, or improve, when everything is going easy.
I encourage you all to read ´Grateful in any Circumstance´ by Dieter F Uchtdorf, from this last general conference. This talk sticks with me, and I read it often. I love something he says.... In our Heavenly Fathers plan for us, there are no real endings. Only everlasting beginnings.
Life is meant to prepare us for NEW beginnings that will always come.
All of that being said....
I am happy to announce that this world is indeed small. I am training Sister Morse. She is my rainbow after the last month of floods! Her portuguese is already very good, and she is an absolute angel. When I found out I would be training her, I cried with a mixture of joy and with relief. I had been praying for about a week solid that the Lord would let us be companions. And he answered my prayer. The most miraculous thing that happens is when the Lord answers our prayers. He always answers our prayers, in actuality. We just have to look harder for the answers sometimes more than others.
With that being said. The work is moving on marvelously. We had two baptisms this past week, and one the week before.
I know that if we stay faithful, the Lord is ALWAYS, ALWAYS, by our side. He loves us dearly. We must turn to him in our weaknesses, in our trials, and humbly seek his help..but we must be careful to not only thank him for the rainbow at the end of the rain....enjoy the journey of life. Don't just endure it!
I love you all and have a great week!
Sister Wainwright